Last day for April...

Today is the last day for April...
hahah i skip the morning class today....hahaha..
because last night i din sleep so..i took i can after hearing the MYFM on this morning one then go to class...but then after leading down on the bed..then POPPSS~~~ after close my eyes..hohoh i sleep ady....hohohhooo..til i woke up..omg~~~~ayaii...

haha
so i went the Eng class on this afternoon..today the weather not so hot..and got a bit raining..a bit only
ya i said today suppose summit the report one..haha i haven finish yet...huhuh~~~
then Ms yasmin tell us summit on this SAT...b4 1pm..if not she will -50% from our marks...omg.wat the hell man~~

2mrm is holiday..but i need 2 finish all my assig during the weekend here...
try my best la...
dont be lazy CATHERINE>>>hehehe

Frigthing wth my assig tats English REPORT...

Yayyyyyaaaa~~~~~
I taking a nap at this evening, because at night i need fright wth my assi report till next morning... act this assig suppose summit on Thursday, but i think i cnt finish it lo...haiz...but my lecturer she is kind of best lecturer ,she allow us summit on this Saturday..hohoho...best la....
Ms Yasmin luv u...hehehe
haiz.... i din ask for helping frm other ppl abt report..i knw my eng is so suck n very broken...but i tell myslf i should do it myslf....i must !!!!!
ayaiii just try my best la....eeee
Honestly, i vry vry scare...haiz....
nw i hearing MYFM here... i hear the “En Kuan Yu” advertisement ,she saying the 烦脑。。。有脑就有烦恼，别把烦恼当烦恼。。我的妈呀。。听到她说就想打她。。烦到要命~~~
haiz ~~
keep doing my report la....
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@#$!@A%&%@#

At this moment i still facing my pc to do my assig here...

HAAHA~~~SIEN AR....
ASSIG~~~ AR~~~AR~~~~
I hearing 988 and doing my assig also...i very like 988 -1001 this channel..if u guys feel bored at night...u guys can go and hear 988-1001 frm 9pm-1am...
2 night the story frm 988 quiet normal..ntg surprise and ntg touching story...ya juz normal....in the radio...i hear some one sms 2 dj ask abt ID course ..she asking is hard 2 find job in the future frm ID course...then in the end i try 2 sms 2 988 said smtg abt ID course,and give some comment to the girl tat asking abt the prob....haha but honestly no need 2 worry abt find job...tats is a lot opportunity 2 find ID job and also the salary also nt bad ooo around rm2000+ "NO BAD OOOO" ....ery...i hear a song called "下星期要去YING国" then i suddenly think, ya i wanna go new york soon for the holidays tat coming soon one...i hope it will success...ooo y i suddenly wanna go new york ler...because i feel so tired here i need go and charge my body battery...i ned traveling ...i wan traveling ar........i wanTTTTTTT~~~~
Act is my mum frens ask me go n visit her at NY there...she tell me she wan to retire ady...i quiet surprise that she said want to retire..hahaha...so fast ooo... she ady ask me visit her frm last 2 yrs ady..until nw i still haven go n visit her,,,i think she want 2 start angry abt me y till nw dont want go visit the NY.hahaha so every time when she email 2 me, also ask me a same question...i also quiet bored tat she keep asking me...so this time i make a decision visit her at NY there...haha but now the prob is don't so hapi fst la....because ned do alot of thing...such as ready some document..and bra bra.. Oopps ya important is the VISA>>>>> this one is quiet hard to setter one....so i hope it were success....

阿桑

台湾歌手阿桑因患乳癌病逝 年仅34岁

曾经演唱过《寂寞在唱歌》、《叶子》的歌手阿桑，因为去年十月罹患乳癌末期，在4月6日早上八点半，病逝于新店慈济医院，年仅34岁。
本名黄嬿璘的阿桑，今年34岁，曾经待过艺工队，也短暂唱过PUB，有丰富的现场演唱经验，被经纪人–资深制作人汪一平发掘之后就辞去演唱的工作专心准备出片，在筹备等待发片的期间，为了维持生活，也当过律师事务所的总机与百货公司的客服播音小姐。
阿桑因为演唱电视剧《蔷薇之恋》片尾曲而走红，总共发行过两张专辑。去年十月被检查出乳癌末期，于今(6日)早八点半，病逝于新店慈济医院。

带着《叶子》与许玮伦天堂相见 2007年2月演员许玮伦去世，阿桑听闻许玮伦生前最喜欢她演唱的《叶子》，于是在博客中这样写道：“实在令人惋惜她（许玮伦）就这么离开了，世事无常。这一切让人感受如此透彻。虽然我从未见过她本人。我相信有天堂这个地方，善良的人最后都会去的地方。现在的你已经往那个方向去了带着许多人满满的祝福包括我！”没想到两年后，阿桑带着《叶子》与许玮伦在天堂相逢。

阿桑走好...
天堂唱歌 给善良的人听...
阿桑，一路走好...

读书真的很难，很大压力，很不开心。。。

Today i woke up around 2pm....wahsei.. as ppl said wah 太阳晒屁 了还没起来啊啊~~aiyoo~~~

WAit y i woke up late bcos i ady no sleep well at 1 week ady....bc suffering my stupid design assg...haiz during the time 2 do the "staircase" i really wana 2 cry n go 2 die ar... b4 v summit our homework v gt tutorial wth the lecturer one..bt everything she reject my idea...haiz at the first time i gv her 2 see my ideal she nt agree me but then she din gv me idea 2 help my design juz ask me mny que...Where it cum la?.. When isit la?... Wat is tat la?... Hw cum la tat la?..... i really wana 2 kill her la... when we start tutorial wth her ooo...i discovery she lk Botswana student..if they dun hv idea she wil direct gv idea 2 them but then she din gv us(Malaysian) n she ask us mny mny fucker que...tis is first tat i dun lk her...then is my turn 2 tutorial wth her...i tell her my idea n show her wat i done n wat i sketch...then v talk talk talk in the end she ask me mny que aso...i duno hw to ans it..start at the moment as a human la...when v duno hw 2 ans the que v were feel scare one mar.....rite?...in the end she scolded in front of the student....k fine...i accept wat she scolded me,maybe i not done it vry well , i try 2 do it well again....k fine....on tat time i think is k, she is a new lecturer in thiz cllg n aso is our year leader in this sem..so i gv her face n talk nicely wth her n aso siad sori wth her..... i gv her FACE.....lo...

Then second time tutorial...i changer my painting 2 my design then she ask me "Y u change it?"Then i said bc i change tiz painting can gv me other idea n inspiration to do it..so i change lo.....then she scolded me again as a design can not lk tat ...har,,,,having a prob then dun wan 2 setter it n bra bra~~~~~~~~........wat the hell ar.......fuck.....then when i tutorial wth her is around 6pm smtg..as a student la...6 smtg still at the cllg is not vry well ady.....then she dun let me go then she said sit at n think other idea of the design wat fuck again omg...."wo de ma ya"......she din let me go home ae~~~then at this i start affair ady..then sudd my father call me hey gal bck home ady ar?then i juz said still at sch...dol~~i off the ph ady...at that moment i fell wana cry ady...omg i really cnt 2 stop think i dun wan 2 cry...bt finally i aso crying ady....i crying without sound la....then i said i wana go home ady...i try 2 dun wan face her,,bz i dun wan let her knw i crying,,,bt she din let me go n ask me mny que...finally i think she knw me cry ady...bt i dun care abt her...in my brain i juz said wat the fuck of this ar.....on tat time i really wana go n die (bunuh diri) bt then i fell lk nt fair 4 me u knw..i cnt bc of tiz design n fucker thing n fucke lecturer go die der mar..rite........so finally i start crying on the bed.......i fell vry sad is damn sad.....so i take courage 2 call my bro n talk to him....on the next day he cum n visit me n try to help me....THkz bro..thank you so mush 4 ur helping....

And then 3rd time tutorial, she bra bra bra~~in the end she approve ady....so i start 2 do my design..... n aso the model....i spend mny time 2 do well my model....so yesterday Friday is our summition day. on Thu night i still doing the design everything so din sleep aso....bt gt tak a nap la... so till 230pm v go 2 sch 2 summit the design...v took can leave when ady summit it..bt then she said cum bck at 5pm n collect the model bck....eeee y ned 2 wait again.....v ady vey tired i took can go bck n sleep...bt then eeeeee v wait until 6 the lecturer hvn finish making.......v wait ar wait ar..me ar wait till sleep ady....finally she finish making then she call us going to 2 class.....can u guess wat she said o nt...she said OUR WORK IS VRY "SUCK"!!!!!!!!!! hey as a lecturer hw cum can said lk tat the 'SUCK' tis word ar....she scolded us....around half an hrs....she ask us 2 drop this sub n no ned go n practice 4 next sem....she said she gt power 2 get us cnt practice on next sem....wat the hell of the lecturer ar.....

AIYO~~~~i wana crazy ady la....mon-fri i see her 4 time in a week ar....i really cnt tahan dia ady.....i really scare abt my tiz sem ,nw i ady fell lk i nt vry smooth 2 pass my tiz sem.....hw ler~ wat can i do nw????

First blog in 2009

WAH WAH WAH!!!!!!I come bck 2 kl ady lo......ned 2 start a new sem again.i ady sem 4 in this yrs..when i go bck 2 sch n go in 2 class,its look lk very thing is changer.i duno y i got tat feeling....haiz..after tis sem v ned go to practice on next sem..i feel lk vry hard..my subj of this sem is vry hard...i scare in the end i will fail some subj lk tat,,,i hope is nt la...juz i try my best 2 do it well la....Haiz in this sem almost lk everyday i ned wake up early 2 schl ler...eeeeeeeee bad la...9am until afternoon 4-5 pm smtg haiz haiz sad sad....eeeeeeeeeeee my life nw is lk highway!!!~~~
haizzzzzz......

Then i aso changer my hostel room ady..my old room rented 2 other ppl..haiz i cant take bck my old room..i more like my old room...at old room there is more free than new room here...important thing is the kitchen...bcz i cook everyday..bt then my new housemate them aso cook 1, so make me seldom cook at kitchen so sometime will late 2 eat dinner.if i at my old house there i can cook anytime when i hungry or nt hungry aso can....bc the old house nobady cooking 1..hahaha bt nw i juz can do lk tat lo...

I hope in this sem.everything will be fine...pls ....must will be fine....God bless me Oooooooo.......

finalll....all is done.....

Last monday(24/11) is my last day 4 my sem3 ady......tat monday is my design(cafe design) presentation...on tat early moning our presentation is start on 9am....bt me n my frenz arrive there around 9.35am....ooo damn scary oooo....bt finally v still can present...hahahaha
At there they gt 2 classes 4 us 2 present ..1 is room 8 1 is room 9.....then my name is on the room 8 name list there..then i quiet quiet 2 paste up my presentation board on the architecture table there....then after tat wait the lecturer call our name 2 go in present 2 other lecturer.....then i wait ar wait ar..until 11am smtg still hvn my turn....then all my frens are ady finish their presentation....so i fell lk abit nt tired 2 waiting the lecturer 2 calling my name...then i stand up n go out 2 wait at in front at the door there..a few moment ago....my lecturer ask me :"r u done the presentation?", then i faster said :"HAVEN LA,i wait long time ady.....y still haven my turn..??? Then he said k u turn nw...GO IN....yahoooo.....
Then i start present my cafe 2 other lecturer....hahahah after 10-13minits,,,,i finish my present....hahhaha the lecturer ,she really lk my concept ...omg omg....on tat moment i feel lk wana cry ady...im so hapi....wahlou. eeerr....hahaha
after finish it...i leave frm th room....i tell my self...

CATHERINE NEXT TIME U MUST DO BETTER ON THIZ TIME...MUST BE HARDWORKING N DO SOME NEW DESIGN OR NEW THING IN EVERY SUB O ASSIG....MUST DO BETTER THEN LAST TIME..K??
YA SURE...I WILL I MUST......YES.....IN EVERY SUB ASO NED 2 BE LK TAT....
YES......

So after tat im holiday lo.....until after CNY....wah so long oo....i ned 2 enjoy my holiday....
i wish all the fabe students hapi holidays lo......n aso Merry Christmas n HAPI NEW YEAR<<<<<<,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,yahoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
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I din sleep again...

AT this moment the sky still raining....the weather still vry cool~~....juz nw i chat wth my frenz....she said ipoh din raining n the weather is damn hot...haha bt at kl here is raining.....i siting at the living room here....facing my pc, i still doing my cafe design ...suddenly i feel lk gt mood 2 do my design....last few days i really din hv mood 2 do design i think bcoz haven finish other sub of assig....so after done all the other subj...i suppose ned 2 continue my last assig of design...bt then... i think bcoz too tired adi....so ya......din do any design thing..haha(lazy lol)

until thiz moment i feel lk gt other best inspiration 2 add into my cafe design...so i quiet quiet 2 draw it down.....after that my brain "keras" adi...i cnt think anymore abt tat adi....so i take a break... i go n make a cup of NESCAFE...i add 2 packet of NESCAFE....wah....nice....i aso hearing MYFM(on9) radio...during im doing my desing.

i holding a cup of hot NESCAFE n around me the wind is cool ...wah damn nice....i so relax...i standing at the balcony...looking up to the sky...

"Catherine u nt a loser...u ned more hardworking than other ppl,i knw u can do it...,if nt success try it again...do it as well as u can....dun GIVE UP..."
YA I CAN DO IT ,,IM NT LOSER...I MUST SUCCESS....YES>>>>>>>>>>>...

k la...go n keep continues ur work la CAtherine,,,,haha.YES SIR...haha
fast finish it then i can go n sleep until i said enough lo....
WAh still raing....Cool.....

IS Raining....

I siting at the living room nw.... i looking out frm the window...the sky is raining..the weather is vry cool....then my mood nw is lk vry relax....
bt then i thinking bck i still hv 1 more assig hvn finish yet, that is DESIGN subj(my cafe design)....
i see other ppl work is better then me,i fell lk vry scare adi....i said 2 myself "hey girl u ned more hardworking lo..,y still dun 1 continue ur work ler??.. "
haha my brain nw is vry KERAS adi....n aso i lazy 2 do work....next monday is mini presentation 4 cafe design...then i fell lk a bit exited ...bt then i hvn finish it yet....omg

Suddenly, i hear some voice frm outside..."DOOMP......SAH~~~~""
Ooops...somebody jump into the swimming pool...wah..so cool man..the weather is vry cool adi y still gt ppl wanna jump into the ice pool ler???hahaha
haiz...somebody is adi finish their assig,,,haiz im here still hv assig...ned 2 do...sad sad...

i suddenly fell wana bck to my hometown IPOH....haiz so miz IPOH ooo....so miz my frenz...i wan yum cha~~~~~~when i can go bck?????hehe i still ned 2 finish my final presentation tat s on 24 of nov....eeee still gt 2 more weeksss ar.........faster la......hehee

i aso so miz ipoh food....THE CHICKEN OOOOO>>>>..
IPOH~~2more week i will cuming bck lol...u must wait me oooooo










IPOH FOOD IS THE BEST IN THE WORLD...HAHAHAH..LUV IT 4EVER...

I hate my grp member called MS LEE...

Haiz after tat thing i adi 吃死猫。。HAiz..juz paid money n learn a new thing in my life lo...bt im nt a loser ...im nt nt nt,,.

haiz...talking abt our grp assi...bcoz of her v ned 2 do again everything....finally said, she DIN do anything lo....

4 section in auto cat...i ned 2 help u redo again,,,then is k la...i ask u cum n trace it then u tanya tanya banyak....then u ask me izit alot ned 2 trace???
haha!! i reply her r u scare gt so mny ned u to trace AR??
hahaha....!!!! i ned 2 redo ur work i aso haven cakap banyak then u ask me izit gt alot ar?? omg.. u look lk tak puas hati oooo.....

k la....finally u cum n trace....ask u go n trace...then in the end wat u DO????wat shit thing cum out???omg

Then jimmy n me 2 help u 2 do again....to trace again.....wat the fuck man......v really wan die adi la....bcoz of u v din sleep n help u do everything again....n u when v doing tat thing u at home there sleep very well very selese....
me n my other grp member vry vry cnt tahan apa u trace itu... SHIT THING>...
IF U BRING IT BCK 2 TRACE...PLZ LA TRACE IT NICELY LA>>>AH KAKAK...

then after v done...ask u fetch us go n print....HAAHA!!!then u said wah so far er....makan minyak kerata...wat the fuck man....

u sms us "if really no transport then i fetch la,bt u said im nt drive vry "FAST" de hor....."

THen i said WAT Ar,,,,u drive vry slowly der aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....hahahahaha u make me laugh lol....omg..

IZIT org kaya vry selfish der ler????

then she never call us n ask izit ned help ???
haha nw i can guess after summit our thiz assi..i can said she ever ask izit ned help...
if i really cnt tahan i can tell u i can delete ur name in our thiz assig...hahaha
v aso hapi bcoz v can learn more thing...haha

我已讲对不起了，但。。。

Today after finish the exam, i sms 2 Tay.
i wanna said saori 2 him...
but then after sms i wait him around 15 min..he never reply me..
i took he never fren 4 me again..
so i try 2 call him..
finally he pick up my ph...thkz god..
he is bz abt his staff...i think bcz of bz then nt free 2 reply..
icic..

i adi said sori 2 him bt i din do anything wrong 2 them..
i said sori bz v still ned 2 same class as well as 3 sem agian...
so i dun 1 bz of the hapen then make us never fren 4ever...

erm....mayb some one said isit same thing same drawing to them....
bt if see creally i can said v din do any wrong way to them...

thiz is a grp work...
then wat my grp member gv tat drawing i juz trace n add my drawing inside..

the shape of tat thing is square shapes..erm...u wan us changer it 2 triangle??
cnt righ...

if someone said smae thing tat i copy frm him 1...i juz can tell u maybe u can said it s juz same angle...

bt any way i ...
i...
i adi said sori 2 him...bt ned 2 thkz 4 u saying 2 let me knw v still can being a fren...

thkz TAy...


bt then act i wan said sori abt 2 her...
bt in the begining i really wan said sori abt 2 her...

bt i cant tahan she "maybe"
writing bad word on msn there..

if she write one time, i can acceprt
bt then she still writing me in 2nd time...

thiz one i really cnt tahan 1..

tat s...

I swear that the copy catter (cater) will get what she deserve to

this vry bad adi

its bz thz sentence so i really can tahan...

so i aso discuss 2 my familly..

they all gv me alot of coment

At here i really wanna thkz 2 them 2 supporting me..eventou my parents adi divorce..

bt then they still supporting me..

gv me a strong power..

THKZ parents..

erm

juz nw 10min b4, he calling 2 me..

erm he said wanna talking 2 me..

bt i adi go bck home..so v meet at trm class..

wat he wanna 2 tell me?///

i duno

duno..

erm...

Stress...no mood 2 do anything ..

STRESS !! STRESS !! STRESS !!

Haiz alot of assignment ar~~~~

next week WANA SUMMIT 1

-MEASURED DRAWING PROJECT 4/5 PC A1 SIZE T.PAPER

- BUILDING CONSTRUCTION
BOTH MALAY HOUSE
1.TRADITIONAL HOUSE
2. MODERN MALAY HOUSE

-HISTORY N CULTURE
design a MALAYSIAN culture house
MUST modern style
3D perspective drawing

-AutoCAD
haiz tiz ned always facing in front of com..
the MATA vry tired

next next week

-DESIGN
design a cafe (final summition)
tiz more MAN FAN 1..
haiz

i really no mood 2 do la...
nw act i wanna 2 do my assig bt then nw i siting at here duno wat i wan 2 do...
which 1 i ned 2 start 1...
hiaz...
i wana die liao.....
omg

ooo ya
n aso
STILL GT EXAM LO
lol
lol

omg

nw i fell so sien ...i ned find some 1 2 chit chat...
bt then who wana chat wth me???


IS TAT U??
i means u lo...
U AR>>>
hey y u look here look there..
is u la,,,
i talking 2 u....
hey....
halo..

Dreaming of my wedding party..

2day i wake upearly...during tiz time i vry feel vry stress bcoz rush+ing my assignment...
WAh...its really alot until i cant brief
then aso scare i cant done it vry well...
bcoz i ned get a good marks as i can ..

haha..wheni wake up tat moment i thinking back last night i was dreaming,,,i dreaming i having my wedding party..hahah izit FUnny...hahaha..

In my wedding party ,it was vry romantic and touching ..haha
bu i cnt saw my husband face,,,haha..WHO IS MY MR.RIGHT??
but i knw in the future i will luv my husband vry vry much,,,bt as well as he aso luv me 4ever la..
haha



i like romantic n can make me feel so touch 1..Opposite i aso will gv my fren surprise in everything like bfday party n mny mny more..
i lk ppl gv me surprise..


erm..if i can having my wedding party on the bus..is tat k??
hehe
i wan the bus take me go arround the city...
hahah
tat juz my dreams la..
bt anyway
i hope it will cum true
WAKAKA!!

選擇

能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎？

這個男孩太傻，為了一個不愛自己的人付出那麼多！....

現在應該很少這種人嚕..若他就在你身邊的話..記得珍惜他..
曾在女孩的記憶中，有那麼一個人。

「我現在喜歡的人，就是我前面的這位啦！」男孩大聲的說著，指著走在他前頭的女孩。

「神經病！」女孩嘀咕著，快速走開那群跟著起鬨的人群，只當男孩拿她開玩笑。

直到某一天，女孩收到了一封信。

『我是真的喜歡妳！我可以為妳做任何事，只要妳喜欢，我都會去做。
一封信就這樣，沒有署名，短短幾句話，但女孩卻知道是男孩寫的。
『那你能現在跳到馬路中央嗎？ 』
女孩在信紙背面寫上這句話，託人交給男孩。


「我能！妳看著。」男孩看了內容，當著她的面衝進馬路中央。

只聽見震聾欲耳的喇叭聲、刺耳的煞車聲、巨大的碰撞聲，以及映入女孩眼簾倒在血泊中的男孩。

「我真的能為妳做任何事．．．．．．」男孩的話救護車高亢的呼聲中，依舊清楚的傳入女孩耳中。

「是你們家的女兒要我們家的孩子衝進馬路中被車撞的！」
「胡說！明明是你們家的兒子自己衝進去的！」

「什麼胡說！他同學說的你們不是也聽見了嗎？我們家的孩子是看了你們女兒的信才衝進去的！」
「真的是這樣嗎？」女孩的母親回頭看著女孩。

「嗯。」女孩點了頭，淚水也在她低下頭的瞬間，滴上了那張寫著男孩與她的字的信紙，似乎也企圖抹殺掉發生的事實。
「你看吧！你們要怎麼賠我兒子的人生！他再也不能打籃球了．．．．．．」男孩的母親歇斯底里的大喊，哭倒在醫院冷硬的地板上。
「這．．．．．．」女孩的父母無言。

「我要你們的女兒陪著我的兒子，直到他再也不需要她的時候，這是你們女兒欠我們的！」男孩的父親說。

「不行！她不愛你兒子啊！你不能那麼自私！」女孩的母親不捨女孩受這種罪。

「好，我會陪著他。」在眾人驚訝的目光中，女孩答應了。

兩年後


在公園的躺椅上，男孩和女孩靜靜的坐著，輕柔的風撫過他們疲憊的心。
「為什麼喜歡我？」女孩開口了。

「能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎？喜歡上了，愛上了，就是了。」男孩淡淡的說。

「如果有一天我有喜歡的人了，你會放我走嗎？」女孩說。

「我從來沒有綁住過妳，是妳自己不放自己走的。」男孩說。
沒有交談了，只有風吹動落葉的颯颯聲。

男孩說對了，兩年前在他醒來後，他就解除了約定，但女孩始終將自己綁在男孩身邊，她愧疚，因為她的一句玩笑話，毀了男孩的夢，男孩再也不能打籃球了。

然而故事卻不會永遠都是好結局，女孩的心給了另一個人，沒有給肯為她付出一切的男孩。


「你為什麼當初要聽我的話！你怎麼那麼笨！」女孩跪倒在地上哭泣。

「我．．．．．．只是愛妳。」男孩說，伸手想將女孩扶起。
「我不要你的愛！」女孩甩開男孩的手。


「你的愛太強烈，害慘了我，你知不知道啊！你知不知道啊！」女孩歇斯底里的哭喊著。
「我．．．．．．」男孩說不出話來。


「為什麼是我！為什麼是我！你為什要愛上我！我討厭你這樣！我討厭！討厭！」女孩用盡所有力氣大聲嘶吼，轉身跑了出去。

女孩的愧疚太深，她沒辦法打開心結，她因為責任而留在男孩身邊，直到她喜歡上別人了，她再也不能忍受不能和喜歡的人在一起的日子，所以她崩潰了，然而也傷了男孩的心。

女孩使勁的跑，用力的跑，淚水模糊她的視線，心中的煩亂讓她沒看對她迎面駛來的卡車．．．．．．
「小心！」伴隨著警告，有人推開了她。

熟悉的碰撞聲響起，再一次，女孩回頭看，再一次的看見倒在殷紅的血泊中。

「我真的能為妳做任何事．．．．．．」男孩說，嘔出一口血，昏了過去。

「不要！」女孩受不了再一次的刺激，她尖叫，使盡所有力氣的尖叫。

「太遲了，肋骨插進內臟，內出血止不住，沒救了。」
「那麼年輕就．．．．．．難道真的沒辦法了嗎？」

醫院裡的人議論紛紛，句句傳入女孩的耳中，她的淚水決提，濕了她的襯衫。


如果她當初能理智一點就不會發生了，如果男孩不要愛上她就好了，她哭，哭的歇斯底里，因為這次男孩真的要離開她了，他現在只能等待死亡。

「我想妳應該進去看他．．．．．．」男孩的父親說，他的悲痛清楚的寫在臉上。

「好．．．．．．」女孩語不成聲，她只能不停的流淚。
女孩進了病房，見到男孩蒼白的臉，她淚水流的更兇。
「不要哭．．．．．．」男孩心疼的舉手擦拭女孩的淚。
「你好傻．．．．．．」女孩哭個不停。

「或許吧．．．．．．這個給妳．．．．．．」男孩張開緊握的手，一封沾了血的信。


「這是最後一封了，好好的看好嗎？」男孩說，眼角留下一滴淚。


「好．．．．．．」女孩接下那封信，清澈的淚水滴在信封上，混著暗紅乾涸的血。
「我真的能為妳做任何事．．．．．．」


這是男孩的最後一句話，他再也不能待在女孩身邊，他走了，女孩昏了過去。

『給最愛的妳：

愛上妳，多半是痛苦，我知道妳的心永遠不會交給我，可是我還是好愛好愛
妳．．．．．．

當初如果知道我的行為會讓妳無法自由的飛，我不會去做。
妳知道嗎？只要妳高興，我真的能為妳做任何事。

我知道當妳看這封信時，妳已經有喜歡的人了，放自己自由好嗎？

不要在強迫自己留在我身邊，我希望妳能活的快乐。

不要問我為什麼那麼傻。

能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎？喜歡上了，愛上了，就是了。

我會一直守護著妳，因為妳是我最愛的人，我真的能為妳做任何事，不管過了多少年，我都不曾改變。』


女孩收起了信，她的淚水已經不再流下，男孩離開她已經五年了，五年的時光也讓她從一個年輕的女孩蛻變為成熟的女人。

女孩的命，是男孩救的，但女孩的心，自始自終都不曾落在男孩身上。

『能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎？喜歡上了，愛上了，就是了。』

在蔚藍的天空裡，風裡似乎帶來男孩的低語。

女孩不能選擇，男孩也不能選擇，谁都不能選擇。