finalll....all is done.....

Last monday(24/11) is my last day 4 my sem3 ady......tat monday is my design(cafe design) presentation...on tat early moning our presentation is start on 9am....bt me n my frenz arrive there around 9.35am....ooo damn scary oooo....bt finally v still can present...hahahaha
At there they gt 2 classes 4 us 2 present ..1 is room 8 1 is room 9.....then my name is on the room 8 name list there..then i quiet quiet 2 paste up my presentation board on the architecture table there....then after tat wait the lecturer call our name 2 go in present 2 other lecturer.....then i wait ar wait ar..until 11am smtg still hvn my turn....then all my frens are ady finish their presentation....so i fell lk abit nt tired 2 waiting the lecturer 2 calling my name...then i stand up n go out 2 wait at in front at the door there..a few moment ago....my lecturer ask me :"r u done the presentation?", then i faster said :"HAVEN LA,i wait long time ady.....y still haven my turn..??? Then he said k u turn nw...GO IN....yahoooo.....
Then i start present my cafe 2 other lecturer....hahahah after 10-13minits,,,,i finish my present....hahhaha the lecturer ,she really lk my concept ...omg omg....on tat moment i feel lk wana cry ady...im so hapi....wahlou. eeerr....hahaha
after finish it...i leave frm th room....i tell my self...

CATHERINE NEXT TIME U MUST DO BETTER ON THIZ TIME...MUST BE HARDWORKING N DO SOME NEW DESIGN OR NEW THING IN EVERY SUB O ASSIG....MUST DO BETTER THEN LAST TIME..K??
YA SURE...I WILL I MUST......YES.....IN EVERY SUB ASO NED 2 BE LK TAT....
YES......

So after tat im holiday lo.....until after CNY....wah so long oo....i ned 2 enjoy my holiday....
i wish all the fabe students hapi holidays lo......n aso Merry Christmas n HAPI NEW YEAR<<<<<<,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,yahoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

I din sleep again...

AT this moment the sky still raining....the weather still vry cool~~....juz nw i chat wth my frenz....she said ipoh din raining n the weather is damn hot...haha bt at kl here is raining.....i siting at the living room here....facing my pc, i still doing my cafe design ...suddenly i feel lk gt mood 2 do my design....last few days i really din hv mood 2 do design i think bcoz haven finish other sub of assig....so after done all the other subj...i suppose ned 2 continue my last assig of design...bt then... i think bcoz too tired adi....so ya......din do any design thing..haha(lazy lol)

until thiz moment i feel lk gt other best inspiration 2 add into my cafe design...so i quiet quiet 2 draw it down.....after that my brain "keras" adi...i cnt think anymore abt tat adi....so i take a break... i go n make a cup of NESCAFE...i add 2 packet of NESCAFE....wah....nice....i aso hearing MYFM(on9) radio...during im doing my desing.

i holding a cup of hot NESCAFE n around me the wind is cool ...wah damn nice....i so relax...i standing at the balcony...looking up to the sky...

"Catherine u nt a loser...u ned more hardworking than other ppl,i knw u can do it...,if nt success try it again...do it as well as u can....dun GIVE UP..."
YA I CAN DO IT ,,IM NT LOSER...I MUST SUCCESS....YES>>>>>>>>>>>...

k la...go n keep continues ur work la CAtherine,,,,haha.YES SIR...haha
fast finish it then i can go n sleep until i said enough lo....
WAh still raing....Cool.....

IS Raining....

I siting at the living room nw.... i looking out frm the window...the sky is raining..the weather is vry cool....then my mood nw is lk vry relax....
bt then i thinking bck i still hv 1 more assig hvn finish yet, that is DESIGN subj(my cafe design)....
i see other ppl work is better then me,i fell lk vry scare adi....i said 2 myself "hey girl u ned more hardworking lo..,y still dun 1 continue ur work ler??.. "
haha my brain nw is vry KERAS adi....n aso i lazy 2 do work....next monday is mini presentation 4 cafe design...then i fell lk a bit exited ...bt then i hvn finish it yet....omg

Suddenly, i hear some voice frm outside..."DOOMP......SAH~~~~""
Ooops...somebody jump into the swimming pool...wah..so cool man..the weather is vry cool adi y still gt ppl wanna jump into the ice pool ler???hahaha
haiz...somebody is adi finish their assig,,,haiz im here still hv assig...ned 2 do...sad sad...

i suddenly fell wana bck to my hometown IPOH....haiz so miz IPOH ooo....so miz my frenz...i wan yum cha~~~~~~when i can go bck?????hehe i still ned 2 finish my final presentation tat s on 24 of nov....eeee still gt 2 more weeksss ar.........faster la......hehee

i aso so miz ipoh food....THE CHICKEN OOOOO>>>>..
IPOH~~2more week i will cuming bck lol...u must wait me oooooo










IPOH FOOD IS THE BEST IN THE WORLD...HAHAHAH..LUV IT 4EVER...

I hate my grp member called MS LEE...

Haiz after tat thing i adi 吃死猫。。HAiz..juz paid money n learn a new thing in my life lo...bt im nt a loser ...im nt nt nt,,.

haiz...talking abt our grp assi...bcoz of her v ned 2 do again everything....finally said, she DIN do anything lo....

4 section in auto cat...i ned 2 help u redo again,,,then is k la...i ask u cum n trace it then u tanya tanya banyak....then u ask me izit alot ned 2 trace???
haha!! i reply her r u scare gt so mny ned u to trace AR??
hahaha....!!!! i ned 2 redo ur work i aso haven cakap banyak then u ask me izit gt alot ar?? omg.. u look lk tak puas hati oooo.....

k la....finally u cum n trace....ask u go n trace...then in the end wat u DO????wat shit thing cum out???omg

Then jimmy n me 2 help u 2 do again....to trace again.....wat the fuck man......v really wan die adi la....bcoz of u v din sleep n help u do everything again....n u when v doing tat thing u at home there sleep very well very selese....
me n my other grp member vry vry cnt tahan apa u trace itu... SHIT THING>...
IF U BRING IT BCK 2 TRACE...PLZ LA TRACE IT NICELY LA>>>AH KAKAK...

then after v done...ask u fetch us go n print....HAAHA!!!then u said wah so far er....makan minyak kerata...wat the fuck man....

u sms us "if really no transport then i fetch la,bt u said im nt drive vry "FAST" de hor....."

THen i said WAT Ar,,,,u drive vry slowly der aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....hahahahaha u make me laugh lol....omg..

IZIT org kaya vry selfish der ler????

then she never call us n ask izit ned help ???
haha nw i can guess after summit our thiz assi..i can said she ever ask izit ned help...
if i really cnt tahan i can tell u i can delete ur name in our thiz assig...hahaha
v aso hapi bcoz v can learn more thing...haha

我已讲对不起了，但。。。

Today after finish the exam, i sms 2 Tay.
i wanna said saori 2 him...
but then after sms i wait him around 15 min..he never reply me..
i took he never fren 4 me again..
so i try 2 call him..
finally he pick up my ph...thkz god..
he is bz abt his staff...i think bcz of bz then nt free 2 reply..
icic..

i adi said sori 2 him bt i din do anything wrong 2 them..
i said sori bz v still ned 2 same class as well as 3 sem agian...
so i dun 1 bz of the hapen then make us never fren 4ever...

erm....mayb some one said isit same thing same drawing to them....
bt if see creally i can said v din do any wrong way to them...

thiz is a grp work...
then wat my grp member gv tat drawing i juz trace n add my drawing inside..

the shape of tat thing is square shapes..erm...u wan us changer it 2 triangle??
cnt righ...

if someone said smae thing tat i copy frm him 1...i juz can tell u maybe u can said it s juz same angle...

bt any way i ...
i...
i adi said sori 2 him...bt ned 2 thkz 4 u saying 2 let me knw v still can being a fren...

thkz TAy...


bt then act i wan said sori abt 2 her...
bt in the begining i really wan said sori abt 2 her...

bt i cant tahan she "maybe"
writing bad word on msn there..

if she write one time, i can acceprt
bt then she still writing me in 2nd time...

thiz one i really cnt tahan 1..

tat s...

I swear that the copy catter (cater) will get what she deserve to

this vry bad adi

its bz thz sentence so i really can tahan...

so i aso discuss 2 my familly..

they all gv me alot of coment

At here i really wanna thkz 2 them 2 supporting me..eventou my parents adi divorce..

bt then they still supporting me..

gv me a strong power..

THKZ parents..

erm

juz nw 10min b4, he calling 2 me..

erm he said wanna talking 2 me..

bt i adi go bck home..so v meet at trm class..

wat he wanna 2 tell me?///

i duno

duno..

erm...

Stress...no mood 2 do anything ..

STRESS !! STRESS !! STRESS !!

Haiz alot of assignment ar~~~~

next week WANA SUMMIT 1

-MEASURED DRAWING PROJECT 4/5 PC A1 SIZE T.PAPER

- BUILDING CONSTRUCTION
BOTH MALAY HOUSE
1.TRADITIONAL HOUSE
2. MODERN MALAY HOUSE

-HISTORY N CULTURE
design a MALAYSIAN culture house
MUST modern style
3D perspective drawing

-AutoCAD
haiz tiz ned always facing in front of com..
the MATA vry tired

next next week

-DESIGN
design a cafe (final summition)
tiz more MAN FAN 1..
haiz

i really no mood 2 do la...
nw act i wanna 2 do my assig bt then nw i siting at here duno wat i wan 2 do...
which 1 i ned 2 start 1...
hiaz...
i wana die liao.....
omg

ooo ya
n aso
STILL GT EXAM LO
lol
lol

omg

nw i fell so sien ...i ned find some 1 2 chit chat...
bt then who wana chat wth me???


IS TAT U??
i means u lo...
U AR>>>
hey y u look here look there..
is u la,,,
i talking 2 u....
hey....
halo..

Dreaming of my wedding party..

2day i wake upearly...during tiz time i vry feel vry stress bcoz rush+ing my assignment...
WAh...its really alot until i cant brief
then aso scare i cant done it vry well...
bcoz i ned get a good marks as i can ..

haha..wheni wake up tat moment i thinking back last night i was dreaming,,,i dreaming i having my wedding party..hahah izit FUnny...hahaha..

In my wedding party ,it was vry romantic and touching ..haha
bu i cnt saw my husband face,,,haha..WHO IS MY MR.RIGHT??
but i knw in the future i will luv my husband vry vry much,,,bt as well as he aso luv me 4ever la..
haha



i like romantic n can make me feel so touch 1..Opposite i aso will gv my fren surprise in everything like bfday party n mny mny more..
i lk ppl gv me surprise..


erm..if i can having my wedding party on the bus..is tat k??
hehe
i wan the bus take me go arround the city...
hahah
tat juz my dreams la..
bt anyway
i hope it will cum true
WAKAKA!!

選擇

能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎？

這個男孩太傻，為了一個不愛自己的人付出那麼多！....

現在應該很少這種人嚕..若他就在你身邊的話..記得珍惜他..
曾在女孩的記憶中，有那麼一個人。

「我現在喜歡的人，就是我前面的這位啦！」男孩大聲的說著，指著走在他前頭的女孩。

「神經病！」女孩嘀咕著，快速走開那群跟著起鬨的人群，只當男孩拿她開玩笑。

直到某一天，女孩收到了一封信。

『我是真的喜歡妳！我可以為妳做任何事，只要妳喜欢，我都會去做。
一封信就這樣，沒有署名，短短幾句話，但女孩卻知道是男孩寫的。
『那你能現在跳到馬路中央嗎？ 』
女孩在信紙背面寫上這句話，託人交給男孩。


「我能！妳看著。」男孩看了內容，當著她的面衝進馬路中央。

只聽見震聾欲耳的喇叭聲、刺耳的煞車聲、巨大的碰撞聲，以及映入女孩眼簾倒在血泊中的男孩。

「我真的能為妳做任何事．．．．．．」男孩的話救護車高亢的呼聲中，依舊清楚的傳入女孩耳中。

「是你們家的女兒要我們家的孩子衝進馬路中被車撞的！」
「胡說！明明是你們家的兒子自己衝進去的！」

「什麼胡說！他同學說的你們不是也聽見了嗎？我們家的孩子是看了你們女兒的信才衝進去的！」
「真的是這樣嗎？」女孩的母親回頭看著女孩。

「嗯。」女孩點了頭，淚水也在她低下頭的瞬間，滴上了那張寫著男孩與她的字的信紙，似乎也企圖抹殺掉發生的事實。
「你看吧！你們要怎麼賠我兒子的人生！他再也不能打籃球了．．．．．．」男孩的母親歇斯底里的大喊，哭倒在醫院冷硬的地板上。
「這．．．．．．」女孩的父母無言。

「我要你們的女兒陪著我的兒子，直到他再也不需要她的時候，這是你們女兒欠我們的！」男孩的父親說。

「不行！她不愛你兒子啊！你不能那麼自私！」女孩的母親不捨女孩受這種罪。

「好，我會陪著他。」在眾人驚訝的目光中，女孩答應了。

兩年後


在公園的躺椅上，男孩和女孩靜靜的坐著，輕柔的風撫過他們疲憊的心。
「為什麼喜歡我？」女孩開口了。

「能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎？喜歡上了，愛上了，就是了。」男孩淡淡的說。

「如果有一天我有喜歡的人了，你會放我走嗎？」女孩說。

「我從來沒有綁住過妳，是妳自己不放自己走的。」男孩說。
沒有交談了，只有風吹動落葉的颯颯聲。

男孩說對了，兩年前在他醒來後，他就解除了約定，但女孩始終將自己綁在男孩身邊，她愧疚，因為她的一句玩笑話，毀了男孩的夢，男孩再也不能打籃球了。

然而故事卻不會永遠都是好結局，女孩的心給了另一個人，沒有給肯為她付出一切的男孩。


「你為什麼當初要聽我的話！你怎麼那麼笨！」女孩跪倒在地上哭泣。

「我．．．．．．只是愛妳。」男孩說，伸手想將女孩扶起。
「我不要你的愛！」女孩甩開男孩的手。


「你的愛太強烈，害慘了我，你知不知道啊！你知不知道啊！」女孩歇斯底里的哭喊著。
「我．．．．．．」男孩說不出話來。


「為什麼是我！為什麼是我！你為什要愛上我！我討厭你這樣！我討厭！討厭！」女孩用盡所有力氣大聲嘶吼，轉身跑了出去。

女孩的愧疚太深，她沒辦法打開心結，她因為責任而留在男孩身邊，直到她喜歡上別人了，她再也不能忍受不能和喜歡的人在一起的日子，所以她崩潰了，然而也傷了男孩的心。

女孩使勁的跑，用力的跑，淚水模糊她的視線，心中的煩亂讓她沒看對她迎面駛來的卡車．．．．．．
「小心！」伴隨著警告，有人推開了她。

熟悉的碰撞聲響起，再一次，女孩回頭看，再一次的看見倒在殷紅的血泊中。

「我真的能為妳做任何事．．．．．．」男孩說，嘔出一口血，昏了過去。

「不要！」女孩受不了再一次的刺激，她尖叫，使盡所有力氣的尖叫。

「太遲了，肋骨插進內臟，內出血止不住，沒救了。」
「那麼年輕就．．．．．．難道真的沒辦法了嗎？」

醫院裡的人議論紛紛，句句傳入女孩的耳中，她的淚水決提，濕了她的襯衫。


如果她當初能理智一點就不會發生了，如果男孩不要愛上她就好了，她哭，哭的歇斯底里，因為這次男孩真的要離開她了，他現在只能等待死亡。

「我想妳應該進去看他．．．．．．」男孩的父親說，他的悲痛清楚的寫在臉上。

「好．．．．．．」女孩語不成聲，她只能不停的流淚。
女孩進了病房，見到男孩蒼白的臉，她淚水流的更兇。
「不要哭．．．．．．」男孩心疼的舉手擦拭女孩的淚。
「你好傻．．．．．．」女孩哭個不停。

「或許吧．．．．．．這個給妳．．．．．．」男孩張開緊握的手，一封沾了血的信。


「這是最後一封了，好好的看好嗎？」男孩說，眼角留下一滴淚。


「好．．．．．．」女孩接下那封信，清澈的淚水滴在信封上，混著暗紅乾涸的血。
「我真的能為妳做任何事．．．．．．」


這是男孩的最後一句話，他再也不能待在女孩身邊，他走了，女孩昏了過去。

『給最愛的妳：

愛上妳，多半是痛苦，我知道妳的心永遠不會交給我，可是我還是好愛好愛
妳．．．．．．

當初如果知道我的行為會讓妳無法自由的飛，我不會去做。
妳知道嗎？只要妳高興，我真的能為妳做任何事。

我知道當妳看這封信時，妳已經有喜歡的人了，放自己自由好嗎？

不要在強迫自己留在我身邊，我希望妳能活的快乐。

不要問我為什麼那麼傻。

能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎？喜歡上了，愛上了，就是了。

我會一直守護著妳，因為妳是我最愛的人，我真的能為妳做任何事，不管過了多少年，我都不曾改變。』


女孩收起了信，她的淚水已經不再流下，男孩離開她已經五年了，五年的時光也讓她從一個年輕的女孩蛻變為成熟的女人。

女孩的命，是男孩救的，但女孩的心，自始自終都不曾落在男孩身上。

『能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎？喜歡上了，愛上了，就是了。』

在蔚藍的天空裡，風裡似乎帶來男孩的低語。

女孩不能選擇，男孩也不能選擇，谁都不能選擇。