I uses 15min to think how i am gonna to start this topic....too bad me.....
I have insomnia recently, it has happening 1 month already to me....I was thinking it is because stress of study plus something happen..
This semester i really no focus in my study...i said it honest really...my heart is too disperse....always hang out with friends go play, eat, gambling, drink till drunk, bbq, send-off my friend at klia, skiping class and many many...
Since i already study 3 years at kl here, i never been like that..have hang out some time but not like this semester, too much and too over....too bad to me again... and use the money like using water
I know i must hearten it up myself...because is my parents pay me to study at here...i cant make my parents disappointed and waste their money, although i am applying the PTPTN nowadays..(not yet approve)
Because some people wanna study also can not so i must appreciated that i can study now...
I apply PTPTN is because i want rely myself...MONEY is very SENSITIVE for my family...
But now, in this semester i fell regret that come back Luct study for degree in 1 1/2 year....
Before make that decision to study degree course..i ask a lot friends to give me some suggestion and their opinion... But in the end the all the suggestion are 50/50...shit lo....which means in the end Catherine Choy must make a decision my herself.....
I was crazy that time because i only have 5 days to decide the way i study or not study when luct open new semester on july 2010 ( The felling are scare+cry+helpless+hopeless n bra bra bra)...
Finally i choose to study....because i fell regrettable to my father...i din take the graduation shoot during my diploma...This is one of his wish, although he dint said it out but i can feel it ( 1 of the reason for me to choose keep continue study)..
Because last time my bro also din take the graduation shoot with him, so my father is very very want to take this shoot with we that wearing with the grown...but then last time was already late...because i dint attend the graduation...
(To my father- Ba, i promise me and bro will take the graduation shoot with u one day)
Catherine Choy need back to her work la...i know i will gonna crazy start from now...because is really alot of work to do....but then still not in the mood...so how?
Catherine Choy are you gonna to fail this semester? Are u kidding? Come on Catherine Choy....
1 word to said HAIZZZZ..........
